For those not familiar, this song describes one possible effect of a psychological pattern known as C-PTSD.
/1/
How can I be better
At things I haven’t done ever
Than the things I did
In my old hometown
Something about that place
Hits me in the face
And reaches out
To bring me down
Nothing that I learned
Was a power that I earned
Instead it ties me up
Like a chain
I still can hear the noise and
There must have been a poison
That has taken up
A place in my brain
/chorus/
Childhood poison
Is the reason
Whenever something feels strange
Childhood poison
Is the reason
And this has to change
/2/
Things I learned to do
When I was 22
Those are things that
Soothe my soul
When I’m in a quandary
I might go do the laundry
And I will feel like
I’m in control
If it all depends on when
I learned to do it then
I can paint the walls
Or sharpen a knife
Walking a dog
Is like falling off a log
But I can’t mop a floor
To save my life
/chorus/
/3/
How can such a force
Keep me off my course
Especially when
It’s been so long
There must have been a powder
They added to my water
To make me feel
Like I did it all wrong
/chorus/
/chorus/
@chipwithrow Apr 2022
I'd already listened to the song you mentioned in a thread as your favorite - decided to listen to another of yours.
Great lyrics here - sharp rhymes. I like the chord progression and strumming, too - catchy, yet bittersweet.
@unpronounceable Feb 2022
I love the rhyme of "noise and" and "poison". Thank you for sharing this.
@nancycunning Feb 2022
I like the way the upbeat feel of the singing and playing conflicts with the darker message. That feels like an interesting way to show that what it feels like from the inside "whenever something feels strange"
I like the way you play a lot. That made it easier to listen to a song on a tough topic.
Great write.
@kristi Feb 2022
You express this message well. A sincere vocal. I like how there's details in the lyric that also empowers the narrator and that balances between the unanswered questions. Good melody and playing.
@tcelliott Feb 2022
You've used that AABCCB rhyme scheme very effectively. Yeah, this is a heavy take, but I think you've handled it very well. A good melody and vocal delivery helps carry it.
@jwhanberry Feb 2022
Serious introspection in this one. You really explain it well and it doesn't come across as a "weepy" song. Good skirmish my friend.