Wrote an instrumental this morning, decided it was useless, and planned on never opening it again. Then this evening I pulled it out and did a spoken word thing over it because initially I was thinking of the song "Pepper" when I wrote it.
It’s too much
I pulled a muscle and so now I have to stay seated
or lying in bed for the most part
or I could walk with a fucking cane I guess if I really wanted to
oh, and my car won’t start
which is unrelated
I told this little lie to myself in my 20s
that my 30s were what my 20s were supposed to be
and then I said and did exactly the same things
except now it’s a lot easier to get injured
hence the pulled muscle
if anything I’m more prepared
for the slow creep of a sagging life
a casually pathetic future
a dozen people who tell me I’m doing a good job on the internet
shit like that
and I sound clear eyed right now but I’m soaking in it
I keep having panic attacks for no reasons and then not telling anybody
so I’m not really soaking, am I? I’m drowning
so that wasn’t that self-aware after all, was it?
And despite the 90s-era signifiers of someone talking over a song
I am not in love with dying
I am not doing it in Texas
I am not popular
and I am not going to ask you to kill me
but this song needs something
not a chorus, but a sign to hold
to say “look, this means something
we are all looking at something together
we are all looking at the most photographed barn in america”
symbols are profoundly inexpensive
so let’s just pick one: a dandelion
did you know that the word dandelion comes from the latin
for “lion’s tooth”? It’s about its leaves
It has nothing to do with the flower
so if someone asks you what this song is about
tell them it’s about dandelions
I really like that song about dandelions
but I didn’t get the part about the barn?
It’s from the novel White Noise
There. You’re in on it.
You’re in on everything.
I do listen to King Missile
but there wasn’t time to reference them in the 2nd verse
my penis IS detachable
Martin Scorcese DOES make the best fucking films
Jesus Christ IS way cool
and I AM going to protest because its Saturday and there’s nothing else to do
@jimdgreen Mar 2022
this is not lacking in charm, there's a slight pace discrepancy between the backing track and the vocals, but that adds as sense of urgency that I like