I came up with the vocal melody and lyrics and realized it was going to be ska-ish. It came complete with terrible synth horns that are mostly lost in the mix. Really fun doing this one, with wonderful bass by @sp4cek4a3n who was good enough to do it.
I had too much to think today
And I realize my optimism sucks
It makes me believe everything's okay
And in the healing power of love
While every other moment is an existential dread
With the overwhelming presence of defeat
Struggling with all the things inside my head
And hoping I can shake them when we meet
I could burn my house down
Fake my death
End up out in Cairo with an ankh around my neck
Felling all my power with a hawk for a head
And Never think of my regrets.
I had too much to think today
And my rationality is defunct
It makes me think all the things you say
Are a part of a scheme you're cooking up
To bring me to a boil
Till my residue is done
For scrapping out and shaping into bricks
Trying to be loyal
Despite everything I've done
Hoping I can make the best of it
I could burn my house down
Wreck my car
End up back in Austin playing open mics in bars
Counting all the lovely moments we're apart
Drowning out my feelings with guitar
I had too much to think today
And accepting how my pessimism wins
It makes me shout out there's no way
And give up the moment I begin
Another mechanism that was meant to keep me safe
Used to accentuate my fears
Others have religion or some hidden special place
Or Booze and an openness to tears
I could burn my house down
Crack my teeth
End up quarantined with an infectious disease.
Pacing back and forth for hours into weeks
I guess id get some sleep.
@sp4cek4a3n Feb 2022
The lyrics are way deeper than the bouncy ska-punk suggests and I love the tension that brings.
This was fun as hell to track bass on past my bedtime, especially because the Ambien was pulling me to sleep and my forearms were aching because of the tempo and energy.
Thanks for letting me play bass on one, @grandbrother