Feb 2022 pop-punk under-2-minutes
Sort of a meta-song about how music's became an outlet to trudge up old trauma and bad memories for myself and other people, not letting me move on. The lyrics are sort of exaggerated but the theme is mostly that and the idea that I don't know what else to write about because fictional stories like I used to do don't invest me emotionally. Chorus is sort affirming that I'm not going to let these sorts of bad experiences hold me back anymore because most other people involved have moved on and there's no reason I shouldn't.
Namedrop a couple of my older songs here (MIA, So Long, Am I Allowed, I'm Not Proud). Sorry both my songs are downers this year. Song was going to be "Another Goddamn Year" but I decided to strip out the profanity.
Musically I guess I had early Green Day on the brain because it ended up sort of like them or The Muffs.
Verse 1:
Another one just to write the check
Diaries of a nervous wreck
Feed the cognitive dissonance
Chorus:
But I won't let this take
Another wasted year
Verse 2:
I used to like every stupid song
Went MIA when I said so long
A hundred times I've been in the wrong
Chorus:
But I won't let this take
Another wasted year
Post-Chorus:
Self-flagellation for the crowd
Self pity turned up way too loud
Milk all the trauma, all the pain
Am I allowed?
*solo*
Post-Chorus:
Time capsules opened for the crowd
Small hurtful words blasted out loud
If I'm not honest, what's the point?
Yet I'm not proud
Verse 3:
Everybody's getting over it
But my recovery is counterfeit
It hurts more than I'll ever admit
Chorus:
But I won't let this take
Another wasted year
@bradbrubaker Feb 2022
Fun listen even though it seems to be about regrets. I could hear this on Green Day's Warning album.
@franniezest Feb 2022
Very catchy and unfortunately too relatable!! Really related to the self pity /milking the trauma thing. Been struggling w that this year myself - need to find a new angle I’m sick of writing sad crap about something from so long ago now!
You captured that feeling really well. Great song
@guatecoop Feb 2022
I like the nice crisp sounds on this! I’m sorry that music (or the lyrics) are drudging up uncomfortable feelings for you! Maybe it’s just the end of that chapter and time to lyrically turn the page? I think it would be a shame to not have your music out in the world! Anyway, I like your song a lot and I hope that you write more. Maybe collaborate with some people? I don’t know, but I certainly hope to hear more!