If I’m going to be completely honest, I should have healed fully before I hurt others.
SHOULD HAVE DONE NOTHING
(Music/lyrics by David Kav.
Copyright 2022. David Kav Ltd. All rights reserved.)
For the longest time, I have pushed everything so far down
I thought that I had resolved all of the pain by now
Turns out that in helping others - I had forgotten how
This anger has been the spark that has driven me out
I should have never been with any woman at all
Nor should I have joined that band with promise that fizzled out
Instead - I should have had that mirror steadily
Right ahead looking at that fury and that toothy enemy
I should have done nothing if I had known any better
I would have spared all of you
Every girl was a shiny toy - and they wanted to play with me
Until I put us back so broken - rocking us unsteadily
There's no more to be said in this matter, anyway
(Or so I believe - until I start to walk away)
It's really very funny how I try to not have the last word
I've always been made fun of for talking too much or too absurd
They say that hindsight is 20/20 everyday
If you really read between the lines of every story today
Or even yesterday - if you read fables and fears
The news, the gossip, your mom and dad: They all warn you
(you just refuse...until it comes to this...)
(Do you really want to know how I am doing?
I'll let you know when I'm done sorting it out)
It's sad when a stranger asks you what they can do
While those you love are in the fog of their own doubt
All my regrets will soothe me in the coming years
Or so I hope as I travel from this walk out
For this is the time - this is the place - this is the truth that I hold dear...
@bethkille Feb 2022
So so beautifully honest -so much truth here too. Really hitting me in the soft spot this morning. Beautiful delivery as well. I hope you found healing in writing this.