More earnest but limited piano and another hesitant but heart-felt lyric about unrequited love. Working title was "Scott-Free," but it had too many words. And I post it because he will never hear it. My tunes are getting better, more adventurous, but the downside is that I have a difficult time playing them without errors. So it goes.
SPUR
I’ve always been careful to stay on my guard. I
have had so much practice. I’ve surely learned how.
I don’t understand why this hurts so damn hard. You
would think I would surely be used to him now.
I should have stayed home. It won’t matter that much
to him. Sweeping up pieces of my fractured heart.
I’ll just look, I promise, I swear I won’t touch
him. By this time, I should have perfected the art.
I wish I could make up his mind.
I wish he would make the first move
Maybe he’s clueless and stupid and blind
I wish I had nothing to prove.
There must be an end to the game we are playing.
A point where I know I have no more to lose. So
why bother wishing? It’s worthless as praying
for anything that I might want or could use.
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I can’t explain why he’s the one I am longing for.
Can’t quit that song running ‘round in my head. He
might like me better if I were less obvious,
if I were handsome, heroic, or dead.
Fragments of dreams only scatter and fade
like illusions that he might need something from me.
I’m left with the choices I shouldn’t have made. And
I promise tomorrow I’ll just let him be.
Maybe he’s left me behind.
Why should I even pretend?
He always the gentleman, just being kind.
He’ll never be more than a friend.
If I’m cold, he would loan me his coat if I plead. If
I’m hungry, I’ll eat. If it hurts, I can cry. If
I’m tired, I’ll sleep. If I’m cut, I can bleed. If
I’m lonely, so what? Are we finished? Goodbye.
@rayboneor Feb 2022
This has a sweet sort of sadness. The gentle back-and-forth of the song is really pleasing, and the melody grabs you. Handsome, heroic, or dead--there's a line for the ages. Nice instrumental section, too
@tseaver Feb 2022
Nice write: the feeling of "look from a distance, don't touch" comes through really clearly. The melody has a almost hymn-like quality: super sweet, but with substance.