I'm so behind! But I was able to sit down today and write another one. Still without my computer, so this is another one-take directly into a voice memo app on my phone. I'm just leaning into the stripped down, unpolished vulnerability of it all at this point and so here's another pretty sad one straight from my heart. I'm finding that as much as I wanted to hit FAWM hard this year hard, I'm still struggling so I can only be honest (and I'm trying to be gentle with myself). I'll write as many as I can, but life is really exhausting right now.
I'm happy with this song though and I hope others can relate to it. It's just me, my martin, and I mentioned the app I'm using in the forum for anyone interested. https://fawm.org/forums/topic/12589/#c268069
LIFE IN NEUTRAL (THESE DAYS)
Dishes are piled in the sink
Haven't been able to touch them in a week
Somehow my mind is both too tired
And too distracted to think…
And that's just how it goes these days
Stumbling around
Walking through a haze
That’s just how it goes
These days
I miss my friends and family
But I'm also content not to leave
My tiny little bubble
That feels sorta safe
And yet it consumes me…
And I'm so tired all the time
I've lost all motivation
It seems impossible to find
Coasting life in neutral
It's not really living
But we're holding on
That’s the best that we can do…
And that's just how it goes these days
Stumbling around
Walking through a haze
That’s just how it goes
These days
Can't remember the last time I hugged a friend…
I miss the ones I'll never see again
Everything is just too much
And makes me want to cry
So I wrap myself in blankets
And stare blankly at my ceiling
Looking for the patterns like I used to in the sky
Keep trying to pretend
That it's gonna be alright
Keep trying to pretend
That it's gonna be alright
Keep trying to pretend
Keep trying to pretend
Keep trying
Keep trying
Keep trying
………………………………
All music & lyrics © 2022, Stacy Koviak-Davison
@nancycunning Mar 2022
Yeah, this feels vulnerable and intimate, and like a quiet anthem of this moment in time. That feeling of being a little trapped, but kind of liking it, or at least not having the energy to change it. Beautiful singing and playing and just so radically present.
@tamsnumber4 Feb 2022
Your recordings sound good to me and you are so good, you don't need stuff. Very relatable to everyone, but don't get too lonely.
@jacobeverettwallace Feb 2022
Man I feel this lyric and vibe so much. You've got a little hope in there too which really creates a beautiful atmosphere. This acoustic vibe really hits hard. Sounds like you've been having computer issues? Nobody would know by this sizzler. Well done!
@returntosender Feb 2022
Well if this doesn't just capture the essence of the last few years... Sad but somehow listening to you sing about it is comforting. Very nice!
@abudabard12514 Feb 2022
Relentless. I love it.
I mean, it's sad as hell but it's nice to listen to and the craftsmanship is top notch.
@mmmmarcus Feb 2022
This sounds great, very stripped down and honest. I like the acoustic performance here. Beautiful.
@circle Feb 2022
why does your phone memo recording sound clearer and better than me recording with proper stuff???
the performance is great, nice chords and a heartfelt vocal. i really like how your voice kind of gives way a little bit, like on "sorta safe", it's a nice sound that usually only happens with these demo type recordings
@auditasum Feb 2022
Even your phone memos sound good. That voice! Captures the feeling of going through the motions-- "life in neutral" is a great way to put it.
@theawkwardsleep Feb 2022
We’ve all been there. Today, actually. Ha. This song is so relevant.
Your delivery is so perfect for the lyrics.
Vocals need to be emotive and evocative in a song like this. You’ve nailed it.
@jorh Feb 2022
That 3rd stanza is really powerful and relatable, the mixture of wanting to do something/change and not having the motivation to do so. This works great as an acoustic, very introspective, quiet and reflective. Love that outro too, with the sped up repeated lines to deliver it almost like an affirmation
@w1n Feb 2022
Very relatable lyrics, and while it would be nice to hear this with a more polished production, I think it works just fine in this version, and that is the definition of a good song.
@skylermf Feb 2022
Heartbreak- I think you paint a viscerally real picture of what this looks and feels like. I like that line in the first verse about being both too tired and too distracted to think. Your vocals are beautiful too!
@coolparadiso Feb 2022
well maybe you are but not in quality! i have had a fair while in that neutral place and its bugged me so i really get this! very nice song and right where my head is - thx
@mikeb Feb 2022
I do miss your full productions, but this 1+1 style shows your true songwriting skills.
These lines sums up a lot of people's lives these days: "But we're holding on /That’s the best that we can do".
Awesome song!
@slawbleu Feb 2022
Oof. Yes, very relatable. I love the short bridge and then the long, long pause before the chorus comes in again (and what a chorus!). And that abrupt ending is really haunting.
@doglatin Feb 2022
Highly relatable, and at the same time, it has a comforting quality to it. I think it's your whispery voice. I think that phrase "that's just how it goes these days" is constantly on my mind. Yes, it's gonna be alright, we gotta keep repeating that mantra, right?