Just over the 1-hour mark once the rendering all happened. Had some fun though!
My mum once suggested that when stressed I should set a time (say 10 pm). Up until that point, I should stress lots and lots and then at 10 pm stop. Just decide that stressing is finished for the evening. It proved surprisingly effective.
Guitar Tuning: CGDABd
Verse
Wrap me up inside and out
What is this feeling I pretend not to notice
To know
And to hold in my head
Pre-chorus
Now the paranoia's kicking in
And I worry to myself am I good enough again
This feels like the long way to calming down
Worrying until I'm broken
Chorus
Wrap me up inside and out
Engulf the body
I have felt it all now
Where is the comfort I have tried to keep?
Floating myself into the deep
I am lost
And have even forgotten myself
Verse
Pull it closer into grip
The wilding thoughts that do escape
Intimidate me
Show me it for all that it is worth
Pre-chorus
Now the paranoia's kicking in
And I worry to myself am I good enough again
This feels like the long way to calming down
Worrying until I'm broken
Chorus
Wrap me up inside and out
Engulf the body
I have felt it all now
Where is the comfort I have tried to keep?
Floating myself into the deep
I am lost
And have even forgotten myself
Outro
Panic all you like
Set a time and then forget
You don't need it anymore
Now the paranoia's dying out
You don't need it anymore
@kahlo2013 Feb 2022
I think you capture the paranoia and self-doubt effectively. Lots of insights that feel honest and are relatable.
@hmstreetteam Feb 2022
This sounds like someone who has given up on trying to avoid feeling things, and as a result will probably come out okay regardless of how alarming some of the feelings might be. A difficult thing to portray, but I think this does it justice.
@erbaer Feb 2022
Wow! There's so much here. I'm hearing a glimpse into discomfort that I think we all can recognize to one degree or another. It's difficult to write so candidly but you managed to convey it all. Well done!