Feb 2022
Day by day I pretend
Put on a show for everyone instead
While inside I wrestle with the voice inside
How many more nights can I run this show?
A smile, kind words, "I'm fine"
an effect to mask the storm brewing within
So real that even my friends can't see through the smoke covering the stage
sometimes I slip
sometimes I miss a cue
and they ask, "are you alright?"
a bad day, a window into my mental state
adrenaline fueling my anxiety to keep going
the one-man show must always go on
gotta keep in check or they know that something's wrong
day by day the lies keep piling
when will they know
who I love
who I don't
what I need
what I don't
the controls begin to blur
now I'm treading water
(this was basically just train of thought so if it makes no sense, that's kinda why)
@jackketch Feb 2022
Nice one, can imagine a screamy emo feel to this.