Feb 2022 ccwelcome folk-punk girl-with-guitar acoustic time-travel depression-songs
haha fun little song about time travel oops its about depression oh no
typo in the song name oops
if i had time machine
to go back to a younger me
and warn her of the future thats to come
the only thing thatd be surprising
to my younger dumber self
is how ive lived this long without
jumping from a bridge or otherwise
offering myself to petty gods of suicide
cause ive got a lot of hate
for cowards hypocrites and basically
anybody who reminds me of me
or at least what i assume are all the worst things
i have said and done
and all the fragments that we once a part of me
dont fit together
maybe they never did
the memory of wholeness is a dream
just like my other
memories
and if a future me came stumbling
from a time machine one day
with warnings of a bleaker future
or utopia-in-waiting
all id wonder is how it would feel
to take her hands and bash me in the skull again and again
and in my final dying breath watch her disappear
in paradoxistential dread
cause i fucking hate myself
im terrified that one day i will give up
and kill myself
might as well stay one step ahead
and waste away all day in bed
it's better than
the alternative
@jsmalls Feb 2022
"cause ive got a lot of hate
for cowards hypocrites and basically
anybody who reminds me of me
or at least what i assume are all the worst things
i have said and done"
shit hits hard.
Also, "paradoxistential" is a great word (and used great here) so I'm stealing it, can't wait to drop it in conversations.
@miga Feb 2022
The tags definitely drew me in. Very creative! Looks like you touched a raw nerve with this song, and thats what songs should do. I get the self-loathing though. Ugh. But stay alive!!
@gardeningangel1 Feb 2022
Quite the twist on the idea of our older, wiser selves coming back to save us! This is dark but funny but also dark...
"the memory of wholeness is a dream
just like my other memories" kind of blew my mind.
For sure sometimes we hate things in others because we see them in ourselves... but I wonder if sometimes we hate those behaviors and take them on as our own because nobody else is taking responsibility (or maybe I'm projecting... anyway, it's just a song. A very good song).
@seanbrennan Feb 2022
The second verse - such a strong sentiment! "I've got a lot of hate for... anybody who reminds me of me," I think a lot of folks feel that. They see traits of themselves in others and react most strongly to that. For some reason I could see Amanda Palmer going to town with this. Nice work!
@stuartbenbow Feb 2022
Lots of solid imagery here, and a powerful write. Well done.
@judypie Feb 2022
Ha well time travel and depression are two sides of the same coin, I guess?? Very raw lyrics, great write! Guitar sounds fab!
@dzdandcunfsd Feb 2022
You've given me a new anxiety with this. Some old man is going to come out of a puff of lights and smoke and just start throttling me to death :D
I really enjoyed this bunches! What a suicidal twist as well. Using your future self to beat your now self to death with. I wonder what that cause of death would be listed as? This was pretty dark and twisted, but really love it!
@sbs2018 Feb 2022
Oh no! So sad! I’m usually looking to see my younger self cuz I miss her. Mistakes made, for sure! But mostly I wish I would have been bolder, standing up for myself more.